J Dudu.Welcome to Crap Street.

This weekend I took my lil cuz out to the club with a few friends. I expected for me and him to wild out. I went to this club on my 18th bday and it was AN EXPERIENCE. I was goonnne off patron, I was slappin boobies, doing Chris Brown moves(Not hitting girls). I danced with about 15 girls that night. One of the funnest nights of my life. Never did I expect to get rejected by every girl at the darn club this weekend. It made me think “Damn, I should start thinkin about cuttin this afro.” I honestlly think I’m a handsome guy…not to be stuck up or anything. But everytime I go to a party or club that’s poppin I could get to dance and have fun with at least one or two lil hotties for the night. But Saturday night I was gettin rejected left and right. I asked a few girls to dance and they completely ignored me, I danced my way to a few…they danced their selves away from me, I tried my good ol’ “lift and gently glide the right hand up from behind” technique…didn’t work…they turned around and nodded NO! I tapped one girl on the shoulder for her to turn around…she brushed her shoulder off!!! This wasn’t about me though…this was about my lil cuz! I could handle rejection. I don’t care if I failed, just as long as I put my best effort in it I’m cool. My lil cuz is not the most confident person, he’s not the most social person, he doesn’t have that “Go getter” attitude. But I will say that the dude is nice! But the saying is true that nice guys finish last…you have to be bold! You have to be daring and willing to do what the other man wont in life. This was the night I wanted that stepping stone to happen. One girl was about 4’8” and about 90-100 pounds.Small lil thang! My cousin eyed her…went to ask her to dance and he got rejected. Then she eyed him on her way to the 2nd floor. I knew she was playin hard to get so I said lets follow her. Then she was dancing all by her self staring at my primo. I know that he was shy, but I told him “hey man…its your 18th birthday, go crazy and handle that monkey!” So he was gettin worked…I know he felt good. Then she tried talking to him and he shyed away…so I gve her his number.haha It just wasn’t my night…thats okay!As long as my cousin got that little extra confidence to be that much little bit bolder…I’m good. My job was hopefully done. There are gonna be other times for fun once his confidence gets to that peak. I tried Jerking and rejecting all by myself…but it wasn’t that fun when people are looking at you like a fool!Next time….next time…

I just got done eating Pollo Compero and drinking Tampico an hour ago and the disgusting taste is still in my mouth! The taste is so horrible I can’t even explain it. It would what I would imagine to taste like cheddar cheese wit ass.haha

Worked all day and it got me thinking…

Since I came back from my trip.Hold up I still didn’t tell yall bout my trip.Let me summarize…went to Belize to visit the fam,chilled and sipped coronas in guatemla with my cousins,sat on the edge of a 120 foot waterfall,got freaked all night at a club from a girl who i found out later that night was a cousin,fell in love wit a girl from an island called San Pedro and to top it off…walked the beatiful beach of Southbeach Miami,ate Gelato on Lincoln Blvd.,then had a Cuban druglord drop me off at the airport….that was a sweet vaca…

I worked my ass off for the whole year so that was well deserved. Now that I’m just working, I’ve had time to think of bigger challenges I want to take on. USC starts in January,I’ve been looking for a nice internship.No luck yet!I made some beats in Belize and I’m sure if I rap on them…it’ll get a party crackin.No doubt!Ain’t pursuing a rap career, but if I bump it drivin down sunset blvd. dudes would jerk!haha…honestlly though, I want to start a business.So I think now is a good time to work under some bosses and learn the inside outs.I want a barbershop,resteraunt or small urban boutique.Just not sure if I’ll settle down in Los Angeles yet…but there is a lifetime ahead of me…

From my standpoint legacies are made between the ages of 17-28. Between these years consructs the rest of your life. Right now I just want some extra responsibility.I have a lot…but I’m tryin to grow…so I’ma keep it pushing and go hard!God and fam first,Education,Love…then errthang else should fall into perspective. This i only the beginning for me…I just know if anything this will be the hardest year of making things happen,but I’m ready! Know why?

Brazil or Costa Rica in 2010!!!!!Hahaha

I have come to the conclusion that people in Belize don’t do jack shit! Life is very different here since the times I visited my family here as a child. Yes…in LA people have to make a living with a job and sometimes that can take control of your entire life. Some people I know in LA live a life of partying every weekend drinking their way Thursday-Sunday. But the people here in Belize…wow I really don’t understand anymore. As a child when I came here people would be out in the streets downtown, there was hustle and bustle, music would be playing through the streets at night, kids and teens would be out at the parks. As kids we would roam the streets at 3am enjoying the freedom to do whatever we wanted and have fun. Overall, if I was a tourist here back in the day I could truely feel a sense of Belizean culture.

Now, everything is the opposite! There are no kids at parks, there is no music in the streets. Its so sad…I understand over the past 6 years there has been a lot of violent killings in Belize. There are even “bloods and crips” out here now. I guess those 2 things have been a big culture shock for the whole nation. Kids live their lives on Facebook and Myspace out here. The streets are empty by 9. The park lights are on, but no one is playing. The young generation get involved with drugs and the wrong people. On a weekday afternoon regular kids are watching tv or on the internet. Same as with the fatass kids in the US!

I’m not saying that life here is completely sad. For those of you that have not visited Belize…you might have higher expectations from what you’ve heard. There are still beautiful places like the keyes, the blue hole, the ancient ruins. Festivals still happen when the time comes. But Belize has truely changed from the culture it once was.

I’m going to make a non profit organization in my hometown of San Ignacio to get kids outside again and music in the air. Belize is a nation with 350,000 people. Change can happen out here if you know the right group of people no doubt. Once I take care of my plans with my education…I’ll start the process. HAHA! Obama style…but really though. Things have got to change.

Life shouldn’t be enjoyed in excess of partying nor day to day. There should be balance. In Belize there was freedom to be out enjoy what a Carribean lifestyle should be. That is no more.